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Crush~ Zhane (I love him and he doesn’t know….) 

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Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m at a standstill in my life. Just going through the motions, but in August everything was uprooted when I decided to move. I had roommate and I couldn’t take living with them anymore. So I moved. I’m still adjusting and I kinda don’t like this discomfort that I’m feeling. Nothing feels right in my life. 

Lost interest in dating. Lost interest in my job. Just lost interest in a lot of things. I realize it’s because when I moved and uprooted the foundation that I had laid, my creativity slipped through the cracks. So I’ve been focusing more on turning my passion (writing) in my career. 

I finally finished my manuscript. Finally. I got accepted into an MSW program for my second master’s degree. But I feel like somethings are still making me feel blah. I got my phone stolen yesterday by a kid at my job and my initial reaction was to beat the black off every kid in there until someone gave me my damn phone back, I was ready to press charges and have everyone searched, but I realized, my phone had become my lifeline. I woke up this morning in a great mood not having a phone. 

So with these next transitions that I’m going through as I enter grad school again, and get this book published. I realize I need to focus more on the things that bring me that feeling of nostalgia. I need to tap back into my old-fashioned creativity. Tap back into my only child syndrome who found an escape doing arts and crafts projects and things. 

It’s time I tap back into: ME. 

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I want to live
An erotic life
Aligned with
The orgasms
Of earth.

Bloom like a
Flower and
Rise like the

— Nanaya (via sublimesea)

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i love myself.’ the quietest. simplest. most powerful. revolution ever.

ism, nayyirah waheed  (via weedbrain)

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Zoom Can’t help but smile every time I pass this yellow door. 😊 reminds me of sunshine. #JerseyCity

Can’t help but smile every time I pass this yellow door. 😊 reminds me of sunshine. #JerseyCity

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Zoom My morning…’s coooooold! 😫😫😫

My morning…’s coooooold! 😫😫😫

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Everything Love

I’m the Queen of it…


Everything Love

I’m the Queen of it…

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Artist: Zhane
Song: Sending My Love (House Remix)
Plays: 30

Morning Jam….

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Delete her number.

Stop ringing her. Stop messaging her. Stop making excuses to see her, to drop by her place.

Erase her name from memory. Remove yourself from her life, more completely than you would like but as completely as she deserves. Move on, so that you can allow her to also move on. When you close your eyes, you don’t get to see her face. Not anymore. You don’t get to think about her lips, the warm glow of her skin when she rests next to you, or how she squeezes your hand in her sleep. You are not allowed to remember the smell of her perfume, that she only drinks mint tea (with two dollops of honey), or that she loves you.

She loves you.

She has been in love with you for too long.

So, forget how she says your name. Forget how she calls your name. Forget how she screams your name. Forget that time you got sick and she stayed up with you all night, letting you lay your head in her lap and holding a cold compress to your forehead. Forget how her hair feels in your fingers. Forget how she looks in your sweatshirts.

Forget her.

Know only that she existed at one point in your life, but relinquish all hope that she could exist at another point — sometime in the future that you are unwilling to specify because you don’t know what you want. Yet. It is not fair for you to swoop in and out of her life as you choose. It is not fair for you to say that you are satisfied with “things as they are” and you will have time to “figure it out” later. Let her stop investing emotionally in you. Let her pour that love and care into the people who deserve her.

Don’t tell her that you think about her all the time. Don’t tell her that it bothers you to hear about her with other people, but that you’re willing to understand as long as she likes you more than them. Don’t tell her that this isn’t the right moment but that there will be a right moment. There is not going to be a right moment. She shouldn’t have to wait for the right moment.

Don’t tell her that you can’t handle ultimatums, that you don’t like the idea of finally adding finality to your relationship — whatever still remains of it.

What you are telling her is that you want to keep her on as an option, that you are taking her for granted, that you want to know she will be there, that you can depend on her at the end of the day. When you find that no one else has stuck around or that those who have are less interesting, less thoughtful, or less doggedly loyal to you.

Doggedly loyal to you.

That is what she has been to you, for you almost as long as you have known her: a constant emotional crutch, the guarantee of stability, a safety net while you reachvout to grasp objects that sparkle and shine far greater than she does. All that glitters is not gold, haven’t you heard?

She is fire. You are ice, and you are afraid that her slow burn will smolder your cool, hard demeanor. That’s what has driven your decisions, your actions all along: fear. You are a coward. You are a hypocrite. You are terrified to let her go, but you are afraid she is too good for you, that she could drive you wild, that you would choke on her flames. That she is too much for you to handle right now.

Right now.

But if you choose not to love her now, you can’t choose to love her later.

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I just reread this quote & now I wanna cry.

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No words 💔

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The face of one exhausted woman.

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Natural hair color ideas and inspiration!

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I saw sparks.

— Coldplay (via hqlines)

*swoons* this song brings back a memory I don’t ever want to forget.

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Artist: Eddie Holman
Song: Hey There Lonely Girl
Album: Soul Essentials
Plays: 21,723


Hey There Lonely Girl | Eddie Holman

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